someone knock some sense into me!
three years ago i didn’t think i’d ever be happy. three years ago i didnt believe in long distance relationships let alone relationships. two and a half years ago hope was born within me. hope that there was something out there…someone who was there for me. a year ago it hit me, life wasn’t gonna get any better. a month ago i realized that the word ’soul mate’ wasn’t fictitious but actually existed.
here i sit. staring at the damn screen. hurting so much inside. i realize that everything happens for the best, but that selfish part of me so badly wants him back. i guess it realy struck me two nights ago..while i stared into a glass of (awful) rockland rum that whatever happened i’m gonna have to stop feeling so damn miserable. i don’t have much of a choice. he’s there. i’m here. he’s still mine. it could be worse.
i’m a real softy, i’m so pathetic. this i type as tears stream down my cheeks as i listen to barbra streisand and brian adams sing ‘ finally found someone’ damn. i’m a blady drama queen. me and my histronics. someone knock some sense into me. Puhlease! nadi? nat? where u boo?
