it’s called being tired..and completely random
working two jobs isn’t easy. coming home at 9pm every night isn’t easy. breaking rest so the love of your life knows you still love him as much as you did when he left isnt easy. feeding the damn dogs isnt easy. try working two jobs, coming home at 9pm every night, breaking rest so the love of you life knows you still love him and feeding the dogs in one go. haiyo thamayi.
i started blogging cos i ran out of paper. (being out of school kinda chokes the constant supply of exercise books) now it’s thing ane. a nice thing. definitely not one of those ‘aiyo must do because that is one of the things you have to do’ kind of thing. its a nice thing.
i can’t wait for the weekend. even though i know i’ll be spending most of my time doing stuff, i still cant wait for it. sometimes i wonder why i keep telling people ‘ya sure i’ll come. no problem. i’ll do it men…aiyo no no i’m jobless’ truth be told i’m not jobless and i’d really like some time when i have absolutely nothing to do but sit around and do nothing….get my drift?
if everything goes off as planned i’ll be teaching at the special needs unit at Ladies’ College from Monday. and that’s not one of those ‘aya sure i’ll come no problem i’m jobless no’ kind of things. that i got into with eyes wide open. it’s one of those things that will make me feel good, and yet incredibly sad. you know? teaching kids like that always evokes that kind of feeling in me. and doing that will satisfy that gnawing feeling (and almost irritating voice in my head..) that feeling that keeps saying ‘must do something for the betterment of society’ which is constantly fighting that other feeling which says ‘no one else is bothered, and even though i bother it’s not like everyone else will bother…bothering is not a chain reaction na’
i can’t wait till april. i really truely can’t. three weeks…three blissful weeks! 
so ya…now i’m going to watch some Lost..season three episode seven which i downloaded after GREAT pains! And (drumroll please) great accomplishment for the month of Feb. i draped the saree all by myself this morning…i’m soo proud of me!
