on growing up and stuff like that..
once upon a time (it seems soo long ago), i was called into my principal’s office, at the convent. she stared at me..goggle eyed through those huge glasses, the cross around her neck dangling i remember. she looked at me and said, ‘i am disappointed in you..you will never grow up..and it is a shame, for you can go far in life if you only took it a little more seriously…you can achieve great heights in this school if you changed your attitudes a little bit.’
i bumped into that nun today, and turned around and ran! funny, inspite of me not being in school anymore and her not being it’s principal, how the mere sight of her can still evoke palpitations!
throughout my school life i was told that i was immature and childish. i was told to ‘grow up’..constantly! and that..was the last thing i did! and i loved it! my excuse was, being childish was a part of being me and i wasn’t going to change cos someone else wanted me to! i’d change when i wanted to! now that i think about it, it was crappy excuse. and i was really being stubborn. it was another reason to reject authority…and throw sand in the eyes of my wonderful teachers! (i use too many exclamation marks!)
this year hasn’t really been conducive to the childish shannon. it hasn’t helped…at all. i’ve been looked upto more than once, and by more than one person. i’ve had to make decisions. go to the bank, to the doctor all by myself…and those are strictly ‘things-to-do-with -another-preferably-older-person’ in my book. and yes, i know what you’re thinking…my! what a big baby! sigh! well rest assured, this baby’s no longer one anymore. and im pouting right now cos i really don’t like it.
i’m 20, and it just hit me; growing up really sucks! maturing is even worse! dealing with the problems and choices life’s giving me right now…well…i’m kind of not liking them..so yeah…growing up really really really sucks!
I totally know how u feel, i really do.I can totally relate.(Hell my friends are still amazed @ the amount of ice cream i eat and the way i still read comics and dance around in public places
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Wait until you’re 21 and see….then it’ll feel really sad
i dont wanna grow up either….
Comment by Dili — March 24, 2007 @ 2:04 am
Do not change anything about you….. you are perfect just the way you are…. that makes you who you are and the Shannon the world ought to know….
Comment by Rukshan — June 6, 2007 @ 11:28 am